今天我的感受：
练习- 刘德华
如果留下多一秒钟
可以减少明天想你的痛
我会愿意放下所有
交换任何一丝丝可能的佔有
幸福只剩一杯沙漏 眼睁睁看着一幕幕甜蜜
不会再有原本平凡无奇的拥有
到现在竟像是无助的奢求
我已开始练习 开始慢慢着急
着急这世界没有你
已经和眼泪说好不哭泣
但倒数说时的爱该怎么继续
我天天练习 天天都会熟悉
在没有你的城市里
试着删除每个两人世界里
那些曾经共同拥有的一切美好和回忆
幸福只剩一杯沙漏 眼睁睁看着一幕幕甜蜜
不会再有原本平凡无奇的拥有
到现在竟像是无助的奢求
我已开始练习 开始慢慢着急
着急这世界没有你
已经和眼泪说好不哭泣
但倒数说时的爱该怎么继续
爱是一万公烦的森林
迷了路的却是我和你
不是说好一起闯出去
怎能剩我一人回去 回去
我已开始练习 开始慢慢着急
着急这世界没有你
已经和眼泪说好不哭泣
但倒数说时的爱该怎么继续
how i feel now..
empty
Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That much
I want to fill this new frame
But its empty
Tried to write a letter
In ink
Its been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
But its empty
Its empty
Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty
And I've even wondered
If we
Should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But its empty
Its empty
Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty
Oh oh
Oh oh
Oooooh
Oh oh
Oh oh
Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty
We're empty
We're empty
Or will we end up getting hurt
Is this love a myth
So tell me are you in for this
There's so much more than we can see
More than you
More than me
It takes two to believe!
Maybe it's our first mistake
And baby that's alright
It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
Maybe it's our first mistake
And baby that's alright
It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
There's a reason why they say that we should give it time
But time is not enough
And that's the reason why when you're young you fall in love
And that's the reason why
When you're young you fall in love [2x]
my temper is growing shorter as the day goes by, somethings wrong with me seriously. i have become mean to almost everyone, i give attitude, i just feel likebeing defiant, and i get pissed off easily...
maybe im jus immature.. haven even get to know myself and haven even know how to be a proper person with a proper attitude.. thinking i know alot of stuff butactually nothing.. dont even know how to control my feelings, dun even know how to socialize, dun even know a single piece of shit.
im not academically inclined, im not physcically inclined either,my appeareance cannot even consider as average, my personality sucks, i have problems with my health frequently and i just cant do anything right.. what the heck..
i cant even do a single thing right and i want to be a good person.. guess this jus totally show how freaking naive i am and how i could jus die once i am thrown to the reality, the current society, the current cruel world.
think i'll end here... i'll write off now.
jenny - the click five
She calls me baby
Then she won't call me,
Says she adores me
And then ignores me.
Jenny
What's the problem?
She keeps her distance
And sits on fences
Puts up resistance
And builds defenses
Jenny
What's the problem?
You leave me hanging on the line,
Everytime you change your mind.
First you say you won't
Then you say you will
You keep me hanging on,
And we're not moving on
We're standing still, Jenny
You've got me on my knees
Jenny
It's killing me
She needs her own space
She's playing mind games
Ends up at my place
Saying that she's changed
Jenny
What's the problem?
I'm trying to read between the lines
You got me going out of my mind
First you say you won't
Then you say you will
You keep me hanging on
And we're not moving on.
We're standing still, Jenny
You've got me on my knees
Jenny
It's killing me...
It's killing me...
It's killing me...
Jennnnny...
First you say you won't
Then you say you will
You keep me hanging on
And we're not moving on
We're standing still, Jenny
You've got me on my knees
Jenny...
First you say you won't
Then you say you will
You keep me hanging on
And we're not moving on
We're standing still, Jenny
You've got me on my knees
Jenny...
It's killing me...
It's killing me...
can't stop - maroon five
All alone in my room, think of you at a rate that is truly alarming
I keep looping my memories of you in my head, I pretend that you want me
And I fall asleep and dream of alternate realities
And I put myself at ease by pretending that she still loves me
And I can't stop thinking about you
And I can't stop thinking about you
You never call, what do I do?
And I can't stop thinking about your love
Ohh, yeah
Can't believe I could think that she would just follow me everywhere I go
I just wrestle with you in my dreams and wake up making love to a pillow
And I fall asleep and dream of alternate realities
And I put myself at ease by pretending that she still loves me
And I can't stop thinking about you
And I can't stop thinking about you
You never call, what do I do?
And I can't stop, and I can't stop
What I would give to have you look in my direction
And I'd give my life to somehow attract your attention
And I touch myself like it's somebody else
Thoughts of you are tattooed on my mind, let me show you
And I can't stop thinking about you
And I can't stop thinking about you
You'll never go, what do I do?
And I can't stop thinking about you
And I can't stop thinking about you
And I can't stop thinking about you
You'll never go, what do I do?
And I can't stop thinking about you
today i went back to my dads hometown kalapa sawit to celebrate my dads eldest brothers wifes 81st birthday (= wish youd have a long and healthy life xD
so i dedicate a song for you ( though the meaning is not what i meant but yea its the title haha)
happy birthday - click five
Hey you
I know I'm in the wrong
Time flies
When you're having fun
You wake up
Another year is gone
You're twenty-one
I guess you wanna know
Why I'm on the phone
It's been a day or so
I know it's kind of late
But Happy Birthday
Yeah yeah whoa
I know you hate me
Yeah yeah whoa
Well I miss you, too
Yeah yeah I know
I know it's kinda late
But Happy Birthday
So hard
When you're far away
It's lame but I forgot the date
I won't make the same mistake
I'm so to blame
So now you know
Don't hang up the phone
I wish I was at home
I know it's way too late
But Happy Birthday
Yeah yeah whoa
I know you hate me
Yeah yeah whoa
Well I miss you, too
Yeah yeah I know
I know it's kinda late
But Happy Birthday
It's not that I don't care
You know I'll make it up to you
If I could, I'd be there
Yeah yeah whoa
Yeah yeah whoa
Well I miss you, too
Yeah yeah I know
I know it's kind of lame
But Happy Birthday
Yeah yeah whoa
I know you hate me
Yeah yeah whoa
Well I miss you, too
Yeah yeah I know
I know it's kind of late
But Happy Birthday
To you
a story which make me feel for him
10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.
A girl asked a boy if she was pretty.
He said no.
She asked him if he wanted to be with her forever.
He said no.
She then asked him if he would cry if she walked away.
He again said no.
She had heard too much.
She needed to leave.
As she walked away, he grabbed her arm and told her to stay, he said,
"You're not pretty, you're beautiful. I don't want to be with you forever, I need to be with you forever. I wouldn't cry if you walked away, I would die."
思念是一种病
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
一辈子有多少的来不及
发现已经失去
最重要的东西
恍然大悟早已远去
为何总是在犯错之后
才肯相信错的是自己
他们说这就是人生
试著体会试著忍住眼泪
还是躲不开应该有的情绪
我不会奢求世界停止转动
我知道逃避一点都没有用
只是这段时间里尤其在夜里
还是会想起难忘的事情
我想我的 思念是一种病
久久不能痊愈
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
汲汲营营
忘记身边的人需要爱和关心
藉口总是拉远了距离
不知不觉无声无息
我们总是在抱怨事与愿违
却不愿意回头看看自己
想想自己到底做了甚黱蠢事情
也许是上帝给我一个试炼
只是这伤口需要花点时间
只是会想念过去的一切
那些人事物会离我远去
而我们终究也会远离
变成回忆
oh 思念是一种病
oh 思念是一种病 一种病
多久没有说我爱你
多久没有拥抱你所爱的人
当这个世界不在那黱美好
只有爱可以让他更好
我相信一切都来得及
别管那些纷纷扰扰
别让不开心的事停下了脚步
就怕你不说就怕你不做
别让遗憾继续一切都来得及
the song im addicted to now:
your love is a lie - simple plan
I fall asleep by the telephone
It’s two o’clock and I’m waiting up alone
Tell me, where have you been?
I found a note with another name
You blow a kiss but it just don’t feel the same
Cause I can feel that you’re gone
I can’t bite my tongue forever, while you try to play it cool
You can hide behind your stories, but don’t take me for a fool
You can tell me that there’s nobody else (but I feel it)
You can tell me that you’re home by yourself (but I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want, but I know, I know
Your love is just a lie
It’s nothing but a lie
You look so innocent
But the guilt in your voice gives you away
Yeah, you know what I mean
How does it feel when you kiss when you know that I trust you
And do you think about me when he f**ks you?
Could you be more obscene?
So don’t try to say you’re sorry, or try to make it right
And don’t waste your breath because it’s too late, it’s too late
You can tell me that there’s nobody else
You can tell me that you’re home by yourself
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want, but I know, I know
Your love is just a lie (Lie! Lie! Lie!)
It’s nothing but a lie (Lie! Lie! Lie!)
You’re nothing but a lie
