到后来才发现爱你是一种习惯
我学会和你说一样的谎
你总是要我在你身旁
说幸福该是什么模样
你给我的天堂 其实是一片荒凉
要是我早可以和你一刀两断
我们就不必在爱里勉强
可是我真的不够勇敢
总为你忐忑 为你心软
毕竟相爱一场
不要谁心里带着伤
我可以永远笑着扮演你的配角
在你的背后自己煎熬
如果你不想要 想退出要趁早
我没有非要一起到老
我可以不问感觉继续为爱讨好
冷眼的看着你的骄傲
若有情太难了 想别恋要趁早
就算迷恋你的拥抱
忘了就好
要是我早可以和你一刀两断
我们就不必在爱里勉强
可是我真的不够勇敢
总为你忐忑 为你心软
毕竟相爱一场
不要谁心里带着伤
我可以永远笑着扮演你的配角
在你的背后自己煎熬
我没有非要一起到老
我可以不问感觉继续为爱讨好
冷眼的看着你的骄傲
若有情太难了 想别恋要趁早
就算迷恋你的拥抱
忘了就好
爱已至此怎样的说法 都能成为理由
我在这样的爱情里看见的
是我们的软弱
我可以永远笑着扮演你的配角
在你的背后自己煎熬
如果你不想要 想退出要趁早
我没有非要一起到老
我可以不问感觉继续为爱讨好
冷眼的看着你的骄傲
若有情太难了 想别恋要趁早
就算迷恋你的拥抱
忘了就好
i was listening to this song on the radio, and i laughed to myself crazily when i imagined daniel singing this song when we make fun of his name. so i shall go back to being a meany again towards him after such a long time of not being one.
Thats Not My Name - edited by WWF
Four letter word just to get me along
It's a difficulty and I'm biting on my tongue and I
I keep stalling, keeping me together
People around gotta find something to say now
Holding back, everyday the same
Don't wanna be a loner
Listen to me, oh no
I never say anything at all
But with nothing to consider they forget my name
They call me 'panz'
They call me 'panzniel'
They call me 'fats'
They call me '胖子'
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
They call me 'joker'
But I'm a riot
crescent splitter
Always the same
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
I miss the catch if they through me the ball
I'm the last kid standing up against the wall
Keep up, falling, these pants they keep me boring
Getting glammed up and sitting on the fence now
So alone all the time at night
Lock myself away
Listen to me, I'm not
Although I split up, out and all with
Everything considered they forget my name
They call me 'panz'
They call me 'panzniel'
They call me 'kluh'
They call me '胖子'
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
They call me 'joker'
But I'm a riot
oh crescent splitter
Always the same
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
oh man this is hilarious. at least to me o_o.
T___T man im jus sad and depressed that i cant attend any of the class chalets (6e, 1/11 - 2/11, amd 309/409) , i cant go culture pop , i cant attend gradnite (OMFG) and i cant go to the farewell party organized on the 22nd of december. This is expecially pissing when i told myself this year that i will make my life fuller and spend my times with my friends and enjoy my time in singapore before i leave for UK and wat happens? one by one events that i want to go is being strucked away from my calendar. ARGH! hate my life. Screw this.
@@ now in KL nothing to do since my bro throw me at home to go date. sheesh 4 month ago he jus got rejected amd was emoing for 2 months and now he is happily flirting while leaving me a 17 year old teenager at home. I was so bored i completed Need For Speed: Carbon in this 2 days -.-
But wait i got the chronological order wrong. im suppose to say y im in KL first @@ no wonder i fail essays. First its because of the UK visa. I made an appointment on monday morning for the interview on whether im there to study or bomb their town. you know, some things have to be made clear. They actualy almost ask u are u a terrorist in the form u know -.- and yea so Dad heard one of his friends is coming up to KL by car yesterday which is friday so since he wants to save the bus fare and he wants me to bring stuff for my bro, he ask me to follow his friend up. so now im here in hsi room staring at hsi wonderful com which i want to have at home and im making use of it to play games that i cant play with my dead tablet.
And now im posting cause i finished almost all the fun games and i ahve to wait for my bro to come back since he gave me the keys and he need them to come into the house. and where is he? outside drinking beer till he is drunk -.- thats wat he tell me.. im not accusing or anything... he was telling me wait for me to come back yea, when i come back i should be drunk so take care of me and dun let me do anything stupid. well.. in my opinion, drinking till you are drunk is doing something stupid.
im actually nervous whether the uk embassy dudes will reject me anot -.O if they reject then i die. have to go back to interview again zZz... amd the fee have to pay again some more..
guess i'll stop here and go try to find something funny to do..
omg things are SO going wrong with my life. First, i cant go gradnight. yea i know its quite a long ago news yea i cant get on9 these days so dun blame me for lagging ths message out. Second, which is the reason y i cant go gradnite, my passport was considered damaged becuz of some smudge of ink cr8ed by an office in sg custom and the thing is the info can be seen but the china embassy rejected it omfg so i have to remake. but damaged passport is considered as lost passport so i have to take 1 month to make the passport @@ so = im doomed since i need time to make uk visa to go uk and which also caused me not able to go gradnite and not be able to meet my frens in sg unti11 22nd drool. Third, now im using my moms com cause my tablet died =.= rest in peace yea, u have been always supportive somewat for me for 4 years and ur time is up. guess thats life. things come and goes and i cant even grasp them and have to always lose them.
hmm i jus came back from the macau-china trip and yea dun feel like posting now since i have quite alot to do now and im jus feeling like posting since well i feel like posting -.- and oh btw i know how great and powerful and how i should not mess with my bros gfs mom when no matter how we appeal and see the boss, they refused to give me my passport shorter than a month, and she did it by jus giving a call and today i got my new passport lol which is like less than 2 weeks. this at least tells me dun mess with her yea. hmm my second bro heard i have no mp3 player so he gave me his ipod shuffle and haha its filled with wat my bro think as Jay Chou's best songs since his debut album and haha im now jus listening to his songs xP. and i realize i dun have a more than 3 pics of myself in my macau china trip -.- guess i hate myself so much so to this extent.
and hmm violence is everywhere in the world. as naive as this sounds, i pray hard that the world will have peace and will go out of financial problems. i know i may not understand those who lost their jobs but dun lose hope yea. im sure there is always a way for everything.
anyway gtg need to continue fill in the application form for my uk visa
P.S. btw i took off my bracers. which is like i purposely arrange a date to take them off before prom and omfg i cant go -.- and the retainer is irritating bleh xP
